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Back to blogging, Laughs :-) Anyway, Didn't manage to slack around the past week &'This week I guess. Tmr got Geography test, Wednesday got Emaths &Physics test, Thursday got Amaths test. &The rest day is only Friday-.- I hope so, Lol. Drifted from manymany of them, Except for my classmates I think. Lols, Had been sleeping during Maths classes all the time, &&' Today's the worst day ever! 7Periods of AMaths! Can DIE sey! ChineseNewYear's around deh corner &; I still haven't buy clothings yet :'( Wish me luck mancxz, Laughs. Gonna study naocxz, I don't wantto fail for my tests, Pray god :] Ciao,
As what I said, It's easy to fall in love, But difficult to let go. Stop giving my false hope when you ain't feeling the same for me, It hurts loads. You won't know how much it hurts, Give up or not? You're hunting me. I'm scared of you, I'm happy when you care &noticed me. But sad when you don't give a damn :')

Hah! It's like for soso loong I've not been blogging? *Like real* Laughs, Had been @ home for past few days. Yeah, Being a goodgirl &Study at home :-) Wokeup, Meet Parry early in the morning. Cos Suhailah's late &I can't possibly stay @ home. Alvin's brother drove us to school @7;10. It's like, Forsure late de rightscxz? But heng bodoh! Struggler^.^ His brother use nitro sey! Speeding soso fun, Lols. Studied, Amaths test today. I did smth veryvery paisey, Test got 4qn in total. Then the 1st question idk how to do, When I know the solution. Teacher say "Pens down!!" &It's like ?!?!?! I shouted like toot mancxz :S, Sigh. I this time maybe will fail :-( Somemore this is counted in CA1 sia! *Worrieds, Trianed home with Navin > Meet AdelineDEAR &co. Slacked till 7;15 and homed :-) Like happyhappy with them today. I guess I not doing homework ler, Stomachcramp like toot! Sigh, Now going to bathe, Then calling AdelineDEAR :) (L)(L) her manymany, Muuacks.

Mood : H E A R T B R E A K

I already told you everything I wanted to say, But I don't know why, I still have a feeling of regret.
Perhaps, The situation didn't turn out the way I had expected. So we wouldn't know, that love would end in beautiful memories.
Or that after you're reunited you lose what you had originally anticipated. But no matter what, In the end, Having something to look forward is something beautiful.

I'm not trying to return to the past, I want to thoroughly forget about the past.
I want to re-experience everything that you and I had come.
And then bury everything in the past. Bury me and you of that time.
Bury it in the deepest part of my heart, So deep that I wouldn't even know where it is.

I know you don't want to see me, And I won't let you see me. I won't bother you. Just let me catch a glance of you, Quietly. Would be enough.

Ask me why do I never get mad at you? I never knew how to get mad at you.

If I wanted to get mad, I'd probably only be mad at myself. Of me to love you, I thought that one day you'd understand that.

I'm actually very jealous of her. So jealous that so many times I wanted to just slap her. But I'm even more angry, that I didn't even have the courage to make the move.

In front of you, I'm just no one. So I can't get mad at you.

You want me to give up on you? All these while, I've given up on all sorts of things.

The only one I haven't, Is you. You want me to give up on you, You can just easily say those words.

But do you know how difficult it is for me when you say that? Don't say anything, I understand..

When I heard that he is really happy, I should be happy for him.
But why do I feel like I'm so upset?
Why weren't he and I the ones having that kind of ordinary happiness together?
Why wasn't I the one that was by his side?
You were right, I'm the one that can't accept the truth.

I thought that knowing he's happy, that I'd be happy for him. And I also thought that after all these while, I'd be prepare to lose him.
But how come, When I found out that he will not be showing up in my life again,
When I found out that he has somesome he loves, with a wonderful girlfriend,
My heart ache so much? I feel like I'm really losing him.
What do I do?... Fate made me lose you, I believe it will return me back one.

RANDOM :)

Can't imagine if one day I went into Girls home, Is like.. Omfg. Laughs, Yeah. Blogging again, Or perhaps it will be the last post before I go mia? Schooling was fine, Is like P.E. I finally ran?! I swear, One more time &I sure will say her le. Srsly, I dont wantto have any problems. I wantto study &That's all. :-) Yeah, Is like, JunQing so nincompoop! Laughs, After school met Melvin @ Lot1. See bag > Ate > YewTee mac > Study. Then meet AdelineDear &Slacked. Somethings happened, Then don't know what police de, x.x I swear. I don't wantto see these kinda things anymore. Cos it seriously hurts me seeing dear being hurt. Sigh, You must really takecare yourself eh. I feel so helpless, Homed @ 11pm. Not sleeping today I guess. Cause Suhailah &Alvin tmr meeting @ 5.45-.- Buaibaicxz. To him: Yes, I found out everything &All the truth already. Thank you boy, Youre the greatest guy I'd been wih :-) Ha-ha! You takecare yourself, Farewell. Love you no more, Miss you no more. I hate you.

Me &ChuYun. She's my bestie alrights. Everytime I cry or sad in school, She will cheer me up deh. &Emmanuel, JunQing too. Laughs, I slept in school for the whole day again. I hate this attitude in school uh. Anyway, Im always tired in school &I don't know why too. After school, Bused to meet Parry &Melvin. Studied till 9pm @Mac. I swear I did study kay! Dont believe ask them, ^.^ First time got mood to study leys, Like duh! :D. Ate dinner @ Foodcourt, Yeah. Tmr after school will be meeting Melvin @Lot1. To see bags @ Zinc, Not buying yet. I want a white colour bag :-( Fyi, Someone got moustache! *Not tell who isit.* Cos hor, If I tell, Tmr I get punched by him. Laughs, Yeah. Things getting back to normal I hope so :-) To him: Now, I hate you alot. Real load, I hate die you, I swear. I love you no more, I miss you no more :-)

I miss me old hairstyle :-( Sigh, Saw Melvin with my spec? Laughs, Yeah. Today schooling sucks. I did my homework on the way to school only -.- 1stPeriod slept all the way to 330pm. Having Flu, Headpain, Throat infection. Tuupid sey. I learnt nothing @ all, Machiam didn't go school like that x.x After school, Bused to PolyClinic to meet Parry &Melvin. Tagged along with Adrian. Saw Shamus @ YewTee. Laughs, Slacked @ Mac till 630pm &Homed. Head hurts alotalot, Should I go school tmr? Sigh, Yeah. Manymany things happened. I've drifted from many people, I don't wish too. I will pull back one day when everythings fine for me :-) I'm sorry, Cos Idk how to care alrdy. I dont want any sacrifices anymore. Yeah, Days went pass, Your presence are flying out of my mind. Huhus, It's 2am plus alrdy. Shall sleep naocxz, Buaibaicxz! Muaacks,

Yeah, Back to post. Shall make a fast one, Because Im tired alrdy :-(Schooling was okay, Sigh. Emannuel going pangsey me again hor?! After school slacked with Darl &co. 3;30 everyone went back. As usual, Me &Alvin waited for her to end her dance x.x Then bused to cck to meet Parry, And YewTee to meet Melvin. *Saw 595 on the way, Which srsly hurt me alot.* Yeah, Saw Julius halfway thru. Went up to Melvin house for toilet :S, Too urgent leh. Laughs, Julius: Smell pigu de! Jkjk, Haha. Homed @ 9pm. Helped Elvis with his work &Didn't do mine. You great uh x,x! Forsure I'm getting a scold from teacher, Buaibaicxz!

Seeing you makes me happy, But @ the same time sad. If one day, I saw you on street. I'll take it as idk you anymore, From strangers > friends > couple > ??. Happy that I can forget you, But sad that we can be friends anymore?