Mood : H E A R T B R E A K

I already told you everything I wanted to say, But I don't know why, I still have a feeling of regret.
Perhaps, The situation didn't turn out the way I had expected. So we wouldn't know, that love would end in beautiful memories.
Or that after you're reunited you lose what you had originally anticipated. But no matter what, In the end, Having something to look forward is something beautiful.

I'm not trying to return to the past, I want to thoroughly forget about the past.
I want to re-experience everything that you and I had come.
And then bury everything in the past. Bury me and you of that time.
Bury it in the deepest part of my heart, So deep that I wouldn't even know where it is.

I know you don't want to see me, And I won't let you see me. I won't bother you. Just let me catch a glance of you, Quietly. Would be enough.

Ask me why do I never get mad at you? I never knew how to get mad at you.

If I wanted to get mad, I'd probably only be mad at myself. Of me to love you, I thought that one day you'd understand that.

I'm actually very jealous of her. So jealous that so many times I wanted to just slap her. But I'm even more angry, that I didn't even have the courage to make the move.

In front of you, I'm just no one. So I can't get mad at you.

You want me to give up on you? All these while, I've given up on all sorts of things.

The only one I haven't, Is you. You want me to give up on you, You can just easily say those words.

But do you know how difficult it is for me when you say that? Don't say anything, I understand..

When I heard that he is really happy, I should be happy for him.
But why do I feel like I'm so upset?
Why weren't he and I the ones having that kind of ordinary happiness together?
Why wasn't I the one that was by his side?
You were right, I'm the one that can't accept the truth.

I thought that knowing he's happy, that I'd be happy for him. And I also thought that after all these while, I'd be prepare to lose him.
But how come, When I found out that he will not be showing up in my life again,
When I found out that he has somesome he loves, with a wonderful girlfriend,
My heart ache so much? I feel like I'm really losing him.
What do I do?... Fate made me lose you, I believe it will return me back one.

RANDOM :)