Hah! It's like for soso loong I've not been blogging? *Like real* Laughs, Had been @ home for past few days. Yeah, Being a goodgirl &Study at home :-) Wokeup, Meet Parry early in the morning. Cos Suhailah's late &I can't possibly stay @ home. Alvin's brother drove us to school @7;10. It's like, Forsure late de rightscxz? But heng bodoh! Struggler^.^ His brother use nitro sey! Speeding soso fun, Lols. Studied, Amaths test today. I did smth veryvery paisey, Test got 4qn in total. Then the 1st question idk how to do, When I know the solution. Teacher say "Pens down!!" &It's like ?!?!?! I shouted like toot mancxz :S, Sigh. I this time maybe will fail :-( Somemore this is counted in CA1 sia! *Worrieds, Trianed home with Navin > Meet AdelineDEAR &co. Slacked till 7;15 and homed :-) Like happyhappy with them today. I guess I not doing homework ler, Stomachcramp like toot! Sigh, Now going to bathe, Then calling AdelineDEAR :) (L)(L) her manymany, Muuacks.

Mood : H E A R T B R E A K

I already told you everything I wanted to say, But I don't know why, I still have a feeling of regret.
Perhaps, The situation didn't turn out the way I had expected. So we wouldn't know, that love would end in beautiful memories.
Or that after you're reunited you lose what you had originally anticipated. But no matter what, In the end, Having something to look forward is something beautiful.

I'm not trying to return to the past, I want to thoroughly forget about the past.
I want to re-experience everything that you and I had come.
And then bury everything in the past. Bury me and you of that time.
Bury it in the deepest part of my heart, So deep that I wouldn't even know where it is.

I know you don't want to see me, And I won't let you see me. I won't bother you. Just let me catch a glance of you, Quietly. Would be enough.

Ask me why do I never get mad at you? I never knew how to get mad at you.

If I wanted to get mad, I'd probably only be mad at myself. Of me to love you, I thought that one day you'd understand that.

I'm actually very jealous of her. So jealous that so many times I wanted to just slap her. But I'm even more angry, that I didn't even have the courage to make the move.

In front of you, I'm just no one. So I can't get mad at you.

You want me to give up on you? All these while, I've given up on all sorts of things.

The only one I haven't, Is you. You want me to give up on you, You can just easily say those words.

But do you know how difficult it is for me when you say that? Don't say anything, I understand..

When I heard that he is really happy, I should be happy for him.
But why do I feel like I'm so upset?
Why weren't he and I the ones having that kind of ordinary happiness together?
Why wasn't I the one that was by his side?
You were right, I'm the one that can't accept the truth.

I thought that knowing he's happy, that I'd be happy for him. And I also thought that after all these while, I'd be prepare to lose him.
But how come, When I found out that he will not be showing up in my life again,
When I found out that he has somesome he loves, with a wonderful girlfriend,
My heart ache so much? I feel like I'm really losing him.
What do I do?... Fate made me lose you, I believe it will return me back one.

RANDOM :)

Can't imagine if one day I went into Girls home, Is like.. Omfg. Laughs, Yeah. Blogging again, Or perhaps it will be the last post before I go mia? Schooling was fine, Is like P.E. I finally ran?! I swear, One more time &I sure will say her le. Srsly, I dont wantto have any problems. I wantto study &That's all. :-) Yeah, Is like, JunQing so nincompoop! Laughs, After school met Melvin @ Lot1. See bag > Ate > YewTee mac > Study. Then meet AdelineDear &Slacked. Somethings happened, Then don't know what police de, x.x I swear. I don't wantto see these kinda things anymore. Cos it seriously hurts me seeing dear being hurt. Sigh, You must really takecare yourself eh. I feel so helpless, Homed @ 11pm. Not sleeping today I guess. Cause Suhailah &Alvin tmr meeting @ 5.45-.- Buaibaicxz. To him: Yes, I found out everything &All the truth already. Thank you boy, Youre the greatest guy I'd been wih :-) Ha-ha! You takecare yourself, Farewell. Love you no more, Miss you no more. I hate you.

Me &ChuYun. She's my bestie alrights. Everytime I cry or sad in school, She will cheer me up deh. &Emmanuel, JunQing too. Laughs, I slept in school for the whole day again. I hate this attitude in school uh. Anyway, Im always tired in school &I don't know why too. After school, Bused to meet Parry &Melvin. Studied till 9pm @Mac. I swear I did study kay! Dont believe ask them, ^.^ First time got mood to study leys, Like duh! :D. Ate dinner @ Foodcourt, Yeah. Tmr after school will be meeting Melvin @Lot1. To see bags @ Zinc, Not buying yet. I want a white colour bag :-( Fyi, Someone got moustache! *Not tell who isit.* Cos hor, If I tell, Tmr I get punched by him. Laughs, Yeah. Things getting back to normal I hope so :-) To him: Now, I hate you alot. Real load, I hate die you, I swear. I love you no more, I miss you no more :-)

I miss me old hairstyle :-( Sigh, Saw Melvin with my spec? Laughs, Yeah. Today schooling sucks. I did my homework on the way to school only -.- 1stPeriod slept all the way to 330pm. Having Flu, Headpain, Throat infection. Tuupid sey. I learnt nothing @ all, Machiam didn't go school like that x.x After school, Bused to PolyClinic to meet Parry &Melvin. Tagged along with Adrian. Saw Shamus @ YewTee. Laughs, Slacked @ Mac till 630pm &Homed. Head hurts alotalot, Should I go school tmr? Sigh, Yeah. Manymany things happened. I've drifted from many people, I don't wish too. I will pull back one day when everythings fine for me :-) I'm sorry, Cos Idk how to care alrdy. I dont want any sacrifices anymore. Yeah, Days went pass, Your presence are flying out of my mind. Huhus, It's 2am plus alrdy. Shall sleep naocxz, Buaibaicxz! Muaacks,

Yeah, Back to post. Shall make a fast one, Because Im tired alrdy :-(Schooling was okay, Sigh. Emannuel going pangsey me again hor?! After school slacked with Darl &co. 3;30 everyone went back. As usual, Me &Alvin waited for her to end her dance x.x Then bused to cck to meet Parry, And YewTee to meet Melvin. *Saw 595 on the way, Which srsly hurt me alot.* Yeah, Saw Julius halfway thru. Went up to Melvin house for toilet :S, Too urgent leh. Laughs, Julius: Smell pigu de! Jkjk, Haha. Homed @ 9pm. Helped Elvis with his work &Didn't do mine. You great uh x,x! Forsure I'm getting a scold from teacher, Buaibaicxz!

Seeing you makes me happy, But @ the same time sad. If one day, I saw you on street. I'll take it as idk you anymore, From strangers > friends > couple > ??. Happy that I can forget you, But sad that we can be friends anymore?

Current mood : Sad, Miserable, Cry.

Listening to: "I knew I loved you"

Yeah, Im back @Blogging &Plurk. Will keep it updated alrights :-) I (L) the first peekture. Geez, Yeah, Wentto grandparents house @ Yishun. Met up with FuXiang. Laughs, Mac &Back to grandparents house to sleep, Canwhored with cousin de Yoshi &PoohBear ^.^ Yeah, Skipped my dinner. No mood &Homed. Talked to Parry (Private de things) &Melvin on msn. I think I'll be meeting them tmr @ YewTee mac. Yes, Friends come &go. People do change, So we've to just accept it. I wantto get my hyper &cheerful me. I wantto get back with my malay friends! Tmr slacking with them, I hope so. Tmr will be a better day Clarabelle :-) I swear I will cry tmr!

To him: I srsly don't wantto hear anything bout you from others, Bcause its just stabbing more deep into my heart. &Idk whether it's true anot, I wantto hear from you. To let me know what happening all this while. Idon'tknow why I will suddenly (L)(L) die you so much. But I didn't cherished it when I'm with you. You're hunting me, My life sucks because of you. &I'm trying hard to get myself up alone. Sigh, I got nothing to say alrdy. Cos Idk if you read my post not. I got friends that asked if it's you, Wtf-.- Dragging me down even more.

MIA-ing soon, Contacting DARL, DEAR, Parry, Melvin &Elvis only :-) (Blog will be still updated)

Back to blogging again :-) Yeah, Had tuition in the morning, After that wentto find Brother to get home key x.x Didn't take mine, Reached home > Take Ezlink &Wentto find Mummy @ Lot1. Had KFC with her. Ha-ha! Then wentto shopping, Bused home &SuhailahDARL came to my house to wait for my mummy. Then off to NTUC shopping! ^.^ Bought 1BlackPoloTee. Happy till crazy :D, Slacked with DARL @ Icon there, Camwhored, Sadden. &Home. Watched movie @Lot1, 9pm. Forget what show le, But that show super funny uh! Laughs. Ended @11pm > Mac &Homed. Yeah, Just realised tmr it's me &DARL de 1year1month de aniversary, Muacks!

You killed me, Killed me to death. My heart's dead, Im always lose to love, Serious. I hate it, I may appear happy. But what's the real in my heart? Tearing for you? Is it worth? Trying real hard to stand back for my loves one. Goodbye, 还有好多话没对你说，只怪我笨的可以。是你让我相信两颗心在一起，现在你离开我了。

Thats Luqman!!! Hohos,


Cried myself to sleep last night, &Wokeup @ 3plus to shower. Yeah, Mummy walked me to mrt in the morning. Meet Darling &Alvin. Cried, School total scuks for me. Wasn't in the mood in studying. Didn't do my homeworks &Didn't bring my textbooks &files. Cried in school, Craved in school. Emo-ed in school, Like a dead person in school. I hate it, Srsly. Thanks Emmanuel, Ha-ha! Sitting beside you make me laugh my ass out alrights :-). After school wentto take puffs, I used it to draw. Creative orhs ^.^ Joined Darling &co. to slack. Had laughters &Slowly me crying again. Friends said my face looked abit drunk -.- Waited for Darling, Yeah. From 10++Peepos slacking to 4Peepos slacking. Me, Alvin, Helmy &Luqman. Waited for Darling to end dance. She say end @ 5;30. Ended up 6;30-.- We went first norhs, Sigh. Then wentto find Dear awhile &Meet Darling below her house. I cried alot srsly.. Sigh. Visited those place me &him spent time together de place &Went home. Yeah, Not gonna think bout him after today :-) I will try my best. 595, Ihateyou. You timer, Enjoy timing others. Buaibaicxz,

Do I look like a toy to you boys? :-) Ohwell, I seriously don't feel sorry for yesterday anymore. I'd listened to Dear &Parry alrdy. I hate you guys playing with girls love. But don't play me anymore, Because I'd enough of it. I tortured enough alrdy, To 4get those times we spent together. You're the last one, I beileved you soo stupidly. Because of your smile &Your innocent face. All I can blame is myself to be so trusted in you. I hope I won't be so idiot anymore.

Halo peepos! Geez, have not been blogging for quit sometime. Ha-ha! Alvin was late today, So Suhailah &Me decided to wait for him &Have mac for breakfast. Laughs, Then reached school bout 9++am, Wentto dc and called parents-.- Idontcare~ Laughs. Schooling was okay nurhs. Had detention till 3++pm, &Parry msg me. Say that he was out!! I'm like soso happy can? Omfg, Cab back to YewTee as it's raining &My leg's hurting)-: Then after that wentto meet friend. And met AdelineDEAR @ her block below thnthn off to Limbang. Meet Parry there!!! Yeps, slacked till 8pm &They sent me home :-) Thanks closest ^.^ I'd great fun &Laughters with you guys. Sigh, You must be sleeping nao boy, I dont want you to get into troubles anymore. SweetDreams :-) PS: Will be updating PriavteBlog, &' Less open blog. Ha-ha!

Me, Alvin and Suhailah. Camwhore :)

Me and Chuyun, Camwhore.

Peektures taken today and past few days bahs. Idk uh, Will blog when I only have peektures as I said :) Yep, Im soon going to be a nerd @ school ;D I swear. Schooling was okay, Being dragged by Faye to go for Cca D; Sigh. Then went back to YewTee with her. Haha! She told me manymany things bout Elvis hor, Geez. Yeah, Wentto find Dear &'co. She's going to study ler!! Omfg, So happy for her nahs :-) Hope we wont drift Ahdear. Then WeiJie &Jasper sent me home, AhDear not feeling well )-: Sigh, Tmr schooling again, Hatecxz! Tmr got Cca night, Should I go? I want take mre peektures! Rahcxz, Will I change back? ... Thinking. Farewell peepos,

Me and ChuYun. Me and SitiHawa.

ME, HsinChen, SitiHawa, Najihah, Hamidah &ChuYun :)

Camwhored, ME and Alvin &Suhailah :)

Me &AhDEAR ;DD

Hihi peepos! Hoho, Today was the first day of school nahs :). Things was going well as I didn't expected, Camwhored with the girls in toilet. School ended @ 2;30pm. Sigh, I don't think I will slack as like last time le sia :-( Plus ACT, End @ 3;30pm. Wah! Siao de hor x.x Today, No teaching. My class is super de quiet, Sigh. I wantto change to 3E2 de can, Awww. Yeah, Ended school, Meet Suhailah &Alvin. Then wentto carpark slack awhile, &Trained to Lot1 library to meet AhDear camwhored a few pictures. Then bused to Limbang park with Suhailah &Alvin. Camwhored there as you can see, :-) Then accompanied Alvin cut hair &Homed. Tmr will be me &AhDEAR de 1st Month, Hope I can meet her :'( Parry, 8More days.