Friday, February 8, 2013

Once you've been hurt once, you get scared to get attached again because you think everyone you love afterwards will hurt you.

 
Yes, I'm upset. It could be because I thought I actually meant something to you, I thought you cared. But I was wrong.

Late for school as usual, I checked my attendance list, & LOLed, it's a long page though. As usual, I skipped afternoon lessons. Stayed in school to complete my programming which supposed to submit tomorrow. Visited my workplace as I miss them, argh. :( I was quite pissed, my pay has a shortage of $60++. I was kind of speechless. Next, I headed home and slack my time off. Waited for brother to came back and head towards town! Yes, I bought my new year clothings from ZARA. A place which I craved for a long time. Teehee, ^.^. Lastly, bought 1 pair of heels before heading home. 

Tell me how am I able to trust you when I can't trust myself? Don't you know how much I love you? How much I'm afraid of losing you? No, you don't know. That's because you always see a strong side of me, don't you know loving you is so dangerous? So dangerous that I'm willing to take the risk to love you. Here it goes: I trust you, you played me off, you lied, I'm hurt not because you lied. It's because of the truth, that you don't love me. It's a routine, isn't it?